I've done it again

Yep, I've fucked up a good thing... again. I don't think my scholarship will be around much longer because I HIGHLY doubt I will pass calculus. This time I'm not sure I can only blame myself, because even though I didn't put my best effort forward, I didn't just give up. This last test for example, there were two or three sections that he didn't even put on the test, and over half of it was focusing on one section (which fucked me over big time.) I should have dropped the class much earlier, or even better taken the AP credit. But no, I didn't feel "ready" and so I went ahead and stayed in the quicksand that is MATH 200 with Professor Ludwig Coco. What the hell am I gonna do? More importantly, is there anything I can do? Am I just one giant magnent for bad luck? Because it certainly seems like it, I mean sure I have my great things, but god damn if I haven't seen more than my fair share of bad luck/shitty experiences to last me more than my lifetime.

I got a new toy

I ordered a green laser pointer for $18 during the last woot-off and I just got it today. I was a little disappointed because we had some awesome fog last night and it would have been fun to mess around with it in the fog. In a dark room you can see the beam a little bit, but it just isn't the same. I need to be careful though, this thing is bright, it reflects a lot of these white walls that surround me.

Anyway, it is finally the last week of classes and I've got 90% of the stuff I need to do for this week done. I took my last calculus test tonight and I've got my essay finished for tomorrow. It is actually a good thing I went back over the guidelines because I thought it was one 1500 word essay for both people, not one 1500 word essay for each person. Oh well, I used my free time semi-wisely, I just need to stay focused better. One day down, seven left. Well nine if you count the weekend (or more if people don't finish presenting this week...)